Some of you might be disappointed by the mismatch of my blog title 'cooldesires' with my content. It's more like a simple daily events report I am posting now & then, rather than a hearthy bag of cool desirees...which my blog title promises to you. Believe me this disappoints me as much as it does to you. Whenever I sit to write something I always desire to talk about my cool desires...and looks like this is becoming one of them ;(
Anyway I've something special for today..and I'll cut it short. This morning before heading for office, I did a little introspection to find out the reasons of my damping spirits for last couple of weeks, and specially why I wasn't doing what I am supposed to do as per my set targets. And I found that I am void of energy..to.carry on with my life. Well...you might say nothing special about it, it looks as plain and straight as life and death.But this gives me a direction of thoughts....everytime I slow down, it's not because I don't have things to work for. This journey seems to have endless destinations one after another. And if you mean by capability and opportunities, then that too I should have in plenty. But most of the time when I find myself stuck, it's like these targets seem to stop providing me the driving force. So I end up in reviewing my goals and trying to make them better or more valuable for me. But actually they are the same one, carrying the same meanings. So am I missing something. Yes...definitely. What I don't know. But I know that I always have been longing for it in one form or another. I know some of the forms in which I can think of getting it. And most of the time it doesn't work out that way. Can there be some way I can get it formless, so much that it can be an integral part of me or me to it....? My first cool desire..!!!